BLISS AND BRAINSTORMING

BLISS

The topic of this assignment couldn't have come at a better time for me. The reason I say this is because I have been busy for the last week and a half satisfying other peoples' needs instead of my own. It all started on Tues the 10th of Feb when I had family come into town to handle some important business. And guess who they stayed with? That's right... me. Don't get me wrong, I love my peoples to death but sometimes they can be demanding as hell!

They had all sort of meetings to go to and court dates concerning our small family business back home. The problem was that no one knew their way around the city leaving me stuck to direct them everywhere they had to go. I just didn't have it in me to make them map quest directions yal. I would've felt bad in the end. After all these was the people who wiped my ass as a baby and clothed and fed me through most of my existence on Earth.

Anyway, the whole time they were here I had to juggle the lives of my parents, siblings, and my girlfriend and kids all at once. And in the middle of all that was Valentines day which all my fellas know this aint a day for us at all. And guess what?! That's my birthday! You think I got to make it at all about me? Hell na but I ain't gonna go down that road cause I'm trying to suppress the memories but its still a work in progress.

I don't remember the last time my life has been that busy and the minute everything stops its like your left gasping for air. You don't even fully grasp how crazy its been until the very second its all over and you're seeing your family off as your life starts to go back to normal. I was also left with a feeling of sadness and part of me didn't want it to end. But hold up, the majority of me did so lets not get it twisted! I love my family and all but I ain't no sissy face mama's boy... Shoooot!

Well during all this excitement of these last weeks I literally didn't have time to do all of my assignments. I know that's bad ain't it? Yes, that's just how crazy its been. And it doesn't help that I don't have the internet at home any longer, which is an issue I am in the process of resolving. But when I finally got a chance to look at the details of this assignment I was thinking what a coincidence. This is just what I needed. Some time to do something I wanted to do and not worry about everyone else.

So what did I do with my free time? Nothing damn it! That's right. I did nothing but try to catch up on some sleep and be lazy. First, of all I have to admit I took a lot more than the three hours we were assigned in class. How about three days? I needed that time though because I start to get severely stressed if I don't take the proper time to let my mind relax on the stuff I be tripping on throughout the week. And once you relax and organize your thoughts you start to realize that the stuff you tripping on really ain't that much as it seems.

During my time this weekend I slept, played some video games, and watched TV. I knew that come Monday I was gonna have some catchin up to do so, even though I was stressing over my assignments, I tryed to push everything out of my mind til then. And you know what? Now I feel a lot better. I feel my mind and body is rejuvinated. I even got up this morning a jogged around my neighborhood which I haven't done in a long time. Honestly, I don't even know where that inspiration came from cause it was cold as hell. Even so, I feel the need to continue doing that every morning cause I been meaning to get in shape for the longest.

So that's where I am at right now. In the midst of playing catch up but I am feeling good mentally. I am feeling good physically because I finally showered after a couple days and a nice jog around the block. Oh shut up! Don't act like yal ain't never done it! By the way, my girlfriend asked me why I was just laying around not doing my assignment this weekend when I was just complaining about the work I had to do. I told her that this was my assignment and, Beth, she swears she's signing up for your class next semester. I had to explain to her the logic behind the assignment but she was to stuck on the part about assumingly doing nothing.

BRAINSTORMING

So far what I have come up with for my final project is going to have something to do with photography. I feel inspired to go out and take some pictures since its been a while since I've taken some serious photographs. As of what I am going to do with those photographs I am unsure of at the moment. I definitely want it to go beyond just pictures though. I want to do something different with the photographs. Something unseen as of yet. I just don't know what yet.